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27 Feb

(i’m gonna warn you that there be girl-talk here. if you are sensitive about menstruation, turn away now.)

she’s ba-ack.

after 456 days without her, my damn period is back

damn.

it was a nice interlude. one of the top side effects of pregnancy.

if there is one reason i don’t like being a girl (woman, female, whatevs) it is having a period.

but if i didn’t have my period, i wouldn’t have her:

b & w

or him:

this is his har-mommy-ca

or these yoo hoos:

cute girls

we always wanted 4 kids and i guess i need to praise the almighty period police that i never had to fear getting my period every month when we started our family. we got pregnant on the first try every time. hell, i got a twofer the first round.

am i proud of that? i don’t think proud is the word…lucky? yea. i’m lucky that i never had to sweat about it. as my grandma said, “he put his shoes under the bed and i got pregnant.” i suppose it runs in the family.

but how does one feel lucky/blessed/full when there are so many that she knows (and doesn’t know) who aren’t as lucky/blessed/and are the exact opposite of full? am i rotten for pointing it out? should i be ashamed? sometimes i feel like i should hide from the truth of my situation to be sensitive of others, but is that fair to me? nopes. it’s not like i shove it in people’s faces every day of life. i think i should get to show off my kiddos, but i shouldn’t have to feel bad about it. they bring me immense happiness and i can’t say i don’t wanna spread a bit of their sunshine and rainbows with the world.

do i feel a little bit special that these are my kids? yeps.

do i also wish the same sunshine and rainbows for everyone else? yeps

now i get to have my damn period for the rest of my life (or until i get menopause a hysterectomy)

and i get to sweat it if i don’t get my period, ’cause 5 kids might send me over the edge.

don’t worry. daddyjay keeps his shoes in the closet now.

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6 Responses to “.”

  1. Irish Gumbo March 2, 2009 at 5:48 pm #

    Too sweet for words, mmm hmm. You are blessed, no doubt.

    And I think I like your grandma too. Sounds like something my own g-maw would have said. 🙂

  2. Kadri March 2, 2009 at 2:54 pm #

    Hi!

    I have not seen you at the gym like a week or so. I miss my little princess a lot!!

    Please come and see us.

    K.

  3. mommymae February 27, 2009 at 9:31 pm #

    kel – ha ha ha ha ha ha 5???? you are TOO FUNNY!

    har – i imagine i’ll take the hot flashes over the period…of course if i’m living in az, i may take that back.

    mae – i don’t walk around talking about it and i’m especially mindful when i talk to people who do have fertility issues. i do appreciate your point of view. and yes, i am moving to arizona.

  4. Mutha February 27, 2009 at 9:14 pm #

    As someone who had a rough way to go in the getting pg/staying pg department, I feel it’s all in how someone announces their fertility. If I tell someone of my struggles and am met with giggles and a flip, “Oh I get pregnant when he just looks at me!” then I get pissy. And it happens allll the time. So much that I just stopped telling my story.

    But no, I don’t hold anyone’s fertility story against them. I am not bitter. I have three beautiful children. I am who I am as a mother because of the path I traveled.

    PS Your kids are so damn cute. I need to get caught up. Are you really moving away??

  5. Harriet February 27, 2009 at 8:51 pm #

    Funny lady. I felt the same way. One day Norm said, “hon, I guess it’s time we had kids”. I took that as a go and voila, Seth…first try. Norm wasn’t even trying, he just mentioned it. Next time, diaphragm baby! Period every month.

    Hot flashes are a bitch! Haven’t slept well in over three years. Counted 35 of them one day! Still, don’t miss the periods AT ALL.

    And yes, be happy and not guilty. It’s not your fault others have problems conceiving. We all have our burdens to bear, this just doesn’t happen to be one you have to worry about…obviously.

    The kids are GEEEEEorgeous@

  6. kelli February 27, 2009 at 5:35 pm #

    I would definitely say it’s worth it!! 🙂 By the way, I won’t be surprised at all to get a call or see a post announcing #5 some day. You’re (a month) younger than me, and I still have one or two more to go, God willing. You’re ahead of the game 🙂

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