beautiful boy

1 Sep

my mom & sister called me this morning at the same time to tell me that my cousin, sean, died.

he had a rough go at life and had recently been turning things around.

i have no reasons. no answers.

i just know i’ll miss him.

i remember sliding down the stairs at my house on lime st. in laundry baskets into a pile of every cushion & pillow in the house.

i remember sneaking away from grandma & grandpa’s to grab a quick smoke.

i remember the smiles i saw more and more in the last couple of years.

i’ll miss you, dear, beautiful boy.

my dude with sean
(my boy with sean at maw maw betty’s last christmas)

*i was going to start posting every day for the month of september because maria mentioned it yesterday & i thought it would be a great way to hammer through some writing and see if i can find the way i used to write again (i mean before the blog.) when i was told the news this morning, this song started playing on a continuous loop & seemed fitting since the theme of nablopomo is beautiful. also that his name is sean and his dad’s name is john.


9 Responses to “beautiful boy”

  1. d. Sharp September 7, 2009 at 12:44 am #

    So sorry to hear about your loss. Best to you and your family!

  2. Mommy Melee September 5, 2009 at 7:26 am #

    I’m so sorry, lady.

  3. cathygaubert September 1, 2009 at 9:53 pm #

    i am sad for you and your family and for the cutting short of endless possibility. xxx

  4. sonrie September 1, 2009 at 12:15 pm #

    Sorry to hear about that. Thinking of you.

  5. Cheryl Glenn September 1, 2009 at 11:43 am #

    Hey there, Jenny. Just wanted to send my condolences your way.

    • mommymae September 1, 2009 at 12:35 pm #

      thank, cheryl. it means a lot.

  6. Sarah Jackson September 1, 2009 at 11:29 am #

    oh no. I’m so so sorry. much love to you and your family – please let me know if you need anything.

    • mommymae September 1, 2009 at 12:34 pm #

      thank you. i’ll let you know


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